Just because we are no longer friends

That doesn't make us enemies though

Perhaps you have not noticed

But You have grown larger- in your eyes

You have gone farther- in your strides

Perhaps You have not noticed but

You now speak down

From high up there 

It is now all patronizing conceit

The easy banter, the kind cheer not any more 

The gentle, equal vibes no longer exist

I still am glad to see you happy

But the comfort and solace have long gone...

Just because we are no longer friends

That doesn't make us enemies though

Inspired from Tupac Shakur's quote

हम दोस्त नहीं रहे -तो क्या हुआ

दुश्मन भी तो नहीं हैं हम

आप को शायद इस का एहसास नहीं

लेकिन हमें ज़रूर महसूस हुआ 

आप अपने ही आखों में बड़े होते गए

आप ऊंचाईयों में टहलने लगे

जहां हमारी आवाज़ नहीं पहुँच पाते 

आप  बहुत आगे निकल गए

शायद आप ने गौर नहीं किया 

पर अब आप ऊंचाईयों से 

नीचे की तरफ आखें बिछाकर पेशाते हैं

और हमारे बीच की दूरी बढ़ती गई

अब यह फाँसला जो हमारे बीच बने

तय करना है नामुमकिन

वह हँसी,  वह मजेदार किस्से

वह अपनापन , वह  आराम

वह सांत्वना , वह तस्सल्ली

अब नहीं रहा

पर इस के बावजूद 

आप की खुशी में हम अब भी शामिल हैं

पर वह मेल जोल , वह साथ बस न रहा

हम दोस्त नहीं रहे- तो क्या हुआ

दुश्मन थोडे हैं हम

REVIVAL

 

Turned away from words and meanings 

When everything else seemed trivial 

in the face of mundane battles

Today your departure has triggered 

Something which has no name 

from deep within the dark recesses of the mind

The thoughts refuse to be stopped

Daring to be attired in cloaks of words

Breathless trying to rein them in, tame them 

Chores beckon 

But unable to pay attention 

Unruly words curdling and frothing

The thoughts refuse to stop

For whatever it is worth or not 

What might have been written that day in the letter

No fragment of memory lingers

But the reply that was received 

Those moments when you picked up that pen 

and let the words flow onto the paper 

like many a time before

And many a time after

But those moments it was just you and me!!!

Thank you for reintroducing me to myself

Who had been buried under an 

avalanche of contrived indifference

Thank you for letting me find me 

For now at least

I had been lost and floundering

The captivity was paralysing

I was angry with words and words paid no heed 

Thank you for helping me reinvent myself

Thank you for allowing me to speak again to myself 

Thank you for reminding me to listen to myself 

For now that is 

I am rambling but I am revelling in the freedom

The shackles have been broken for now at least

Let me peep out, let me venture for some time at least

Until worldly matters banish me 

to the netherworlds of silence and apathy yet again

I seek no external visibility 

For now becoming visible for myself shall suffice

Whom are we celebrating 

Whom are we mourning

Us ..

those layered slivers of us 

revealed to us

Multiple epiphanies unravelled 

Thank you for the Visibility 

Thank you for the Validation 

Thank you for the Resurrection 

That is… for now at least…

Thank you for being the you in the me

And the me in the you ( Like someone famously uttered)