Thursday, September 29, 2005

Simbly....

the back ache has decreased considerably- the ayurvedic medicine has proved to be highly effective, tho I cannot rave about the taste- but amma always said medicine is not to be taken for its taste but to cure- ok then- I’d rather gulp the medicine than bear the pain and worse the fears and anxieties wondering which terrible malady I’m afflicted with…

I’ve been flitting from blog to blog- from one link to another and then follg other links from there and I keep adding them to my blog roll- I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to catch up with all the blogs but then I do so enjoy reading most of them- the content, the style, the language all amaze me so - yet I’ve to admit- they give me a major complex too- people here are so articulate and express so beautifully- that I shrink from my own… and then I tell myself- it doesn’t matter- I write only to put my thoughts into words- just for myself and I feel a trifle better- and yet I wish I cud put down my thoughts in a better way- precisely how- I don’t know- I cannot stop writing the way I do- I mean that’s me- but I no longer put the thumbs up at dss- simply becos, I feel my jottings are getting increasingly subjective- personal ramblings- I wonder at times if I come across as silly- or something- so let me be .. and I also feel the need to wipe out that little audience in my head to be able to pour out my thoughts honestly- to stop Ardra from monitoring N's thoughts, words- so if I'm left with the feeling that nobody reads these words, I'm able to be more of myself...no burden of soundin corect, thoughtful, diplomatic vagera vagera...
and if if somebody drops by by accident- oh- well- poor unsuspecting reader- is all I can say…these are just my thoughts –

And then I see all that jingamajigga- stuff of sitemeter,blog clicker, blog ranking, abt increasg blog traffic- and I keep wondering…

3 comments:

Akruti said...

U gave the answer yourself "So let it be" Its someone else who owns such Perception {If anyone do} and Let them live with them and u write what u feel like, U dont need to be diplomatic and correct,Because that will kill the creativity,Happened to me and i had to close the blog,Too many comments, too many ppl and too many suggestions, arguements and judgments, criticizm and huh,i couldn take it and i am back to my anon blogging and happy about it:)
Hope the backache is gone completely and u r doing fine,Will mail u soon.

paddy said...

well you know what even i feel the same way . i too am astonished to see so many people with so amny different templates and ideas for their blogs and they come out with so many different topics day after day and the way they reproduce their thoughts in front of others. also i have a long blogroll list which i seldom am able to completely go through...

silk said...

hello ardra,


mmmm ardramaam sandhyakal itself is so poetic - paints a beautiful serene picture.

ardra, when i first started off, lots of people joined hands to help this computer illiterate me to put up a tag board n site meter , n blog roll n ..... whats more , a good samaritan volunteered to give my blog a complete template makeover - as u mightve guessed , i made a lot of selfless friends . then the links in the blogrolll grew n grew n finally i cudnt keep up with all the blogs i so loved to read, n threw in the towel - now ive started all over again - coz the fun is too addictive to keep away from :D

that aside, ardra, hope u n the family are doing well . take care :D

blithe aka kj aka silk - phewwwww :D